on my own

my musing for today:

Today is a day a firsts. I didn't get into it on social media but that's what this is for, right? Today is the first day of my last semester as a teacher in Japan. I am elated. I've known for a long time that teaching is not my calling, but living in Japan was way to fun a ride too get off after one spin. However, seeing too many new faces is always an indicator that my time at a place is coming to an end (not because I'm forced to leave, but because it's when I feel I should). Japan makes a sport out having new faces around with the teacher-swapping they do every April, and having lost my favorite JTE to a nearby high school, I can't wait to make my exit too.

Another first is living on my own starting today. Huh? You thought I already was on my own? Well, of course that can and has meant up until this point that I'm out from under my parent's wings. As independent as we feel in our early twenties, moving out of your parent's house is when you truly become independent. Since moving to Japan, I've been living with my boyfriend and we made our house into a home complete with a faux child in the form of a rabbit, but now it's just me and the bunny. It's been nerve-wracking to think about for sure, but I think in time, I'll come to like aspects of living completely alone that I haven't been able to learn thus so far.

Something I've gained over the years the ability to recognize when God is preparing me for something bigger, something better, or just something else. When I was just a bit younger I really couldn't see the pattern and any changes in my life were very hard on me. Now, as I see the pattern, I don't have to like it but I mentally prepare for it and handle it better.. on my own.