One of those cliche sayings about New York is that 'if you can make it here, you can make it anywhere.' So I am happy to say that I feel like I conquered the concrete jungle and made Manhattan my
The city is definitely made for a girl like me with big dreams and who likes to always be on the go. I did miss loved ones at times since many of my days I only had myself for company with my brother working long shifts. But as Carrie Bradshaw said in a SATC episode, "New York is the perfect place for the single girl. The city is your date." I thought this when I found myself in her exact situation, on my way to the Guggenheim by myself one rainy summer day.
My reflection time came during many subway rides and hours in museum galleries. I recognized a lot of my own faults that I need to work on as person and in my relationships. I have a image of the kind of person I want to be in my head, but often fall short. I need to be harder on myself to get there instead of letting other people dictate my emotions and happiness. It's not easy and I stumble every day, but there is progress. This step back from my usual life will make getting there will be easier too I think.
Now, I've come back to M I A happier and rejuvenated enough to take on those stresses again until my next great adventure: Japan.
Thank you, New York. You truly are the greatest city in the world.
I'm so glad you got to, not only enjoy your time in New York, but also grow from it. I remember you telling before your trip that you were lost and had trouble seeing the light in your future... but now, you seem so sure of yourself and I can tell from this blog that you have most, if not all, your confidence again.
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I swear that I am constantly learning more and more about you. A we've hoped, this trip has become a sort of repreve for you. And it certainly has made you more radiant. You're different from before, in a positive way. I'm so happy you found a piece of yourself in that city and I can see how your attitude reflects that. Don't worry love, you won't have to be in Miami much longer, be patient and you'll soon be traveling to the other side of the world with me.（＾∇＾）
ReplyDeleteBefore coming to Honduras, I was starting to feel the same way in Miami - a bit lost. I felt that I had forgotten about the person who I take pride in being and that I'd completely given up on my dreams and aspirations in life. Sometimes it takes a break from our everyday life to "relearn" who we are. I think I've mentioned before that I've always wanted to live in New York, even though I've never even been there. I'm glad to see that you had a great experience up there, and it only motivates me even more to try to get the hell out of Miami! LOL
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