long time coming.

Disclaimer: This is all very random.

I know I always want to fast forward time and I'll probably regret it at some point, but not today. There's been a purpose to my prolonging my stay in Miami, but I'm long overdue to get out of here. I have a list of places I want to live and crazy things I want to do, and I've been ready, but just waiting - and as someone told me the other day, "I'm the most impatient person in the world" (we were playing a board game and he was taking for-freakin-ever!). But I didn't take any offense to that since it is quite true...lollygaggers doing there lollygagging business on my time is one of my biggest pet peeves.
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There have been several very real times in my life when things go my way and I know, without a doubt, God is my on my side (although I've been called just the opposite). He has made the silver lining of things well worth the wait at times..like how there's at least one person out there I would like thank for their vandalizing ways. (maybe that does make me a little devilish, hehe. ah well)
A couple of months ago I learned one of my favorite bands was touring their new album. They weren't coming to Miami, but I was already trying to find a way to go see them in Atlanta or New York. But one of my closest Japanese friends was finally coming to Miami so I couldn't go. Then on the day they performed, they posted a picture on facebook and I commented "I should've been there! Please come to Florida!" Next time I check out their page, they had announced new tour dates and were coming as close as Ft. Lauderdale! With the quickness, I bought tickets! Thank you Jesus and Jimmy Eat World

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I've been really grateful lately for the leaps and bounds I've made in a relationship that I thought I had ruined forever. I was never bitter towards this person, just hurt (which is why I think they came around) and it took a little more than a year, but it seems we've moved on. I plan on being in Japan next year, so it really would've disturbed me to have left on bad terms. On that same note, another awkward situation is following me despite my leaving it alone. This is another relationship that took a big hit and although I thought we agreed to disagree, this person is proving to be bipolar. I was ignored for months and then a text with, "I miss u" on a random Tuesday morning shows up. What?!! I don't even want to acknowledge the situation I've been so hurt and confused, but I'm not heartless. I know there are those who revel in the pain they've caused others, but I feel terrible when my actions hurt others, but in this case I don't know what to do...

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It's that time again. Every couple of months, I get restless and want to change up my look a bit. Nothing as drastic as last year when I chopped off my hair (but I'm glad and I can say that I've done that once in my life). Maybe throw I'll throw in some crazy color as a last rebellious act before I have to be professional for the Japanese workforce. I saw an ad in a magazine that I liked but I always have second thoughts once I'm in the salon, hehe. If I actually go through with it, I'll post a pic of the ad and of me with the look. Along with the idea of changing up my look, one of my New Year's resolutions was to become comfortable with the idea of getting a tattoo. I feel like a tattoo shouldn't be a flippant decision, first time getting one or not. It shouldn't happen as an act of rebellion or something to be different for the sake of being different or even for a friend who thinks it'd be some kind of sign of our friendship. That being said, I met a Japanese tattoo artist while having green tea one day during my Brooklyn getaway and I got a really good vibe from him. I felt like he was a friend and we were just catching up over some tea. I told him how I wasn't going to get one till I was ready and he applauded me for making a responsible decision and respecting the act of getting a tattoo. I've checked out his website and am happy that if I do decide to do this it'll be in one of my favorite cities, with a Japanese artist, and with someone I didn't just meet on the spot.


Well I suppose that's enough of my musings for now.